It's hard to say

I don’t know what to say …

For I am a girl who has difficulty in expressing her feelings in words.

I know that I am high maintenance.

I’m trying my best to obey and to stick to you.

Dear Lord, please send out more challenges that I could face

For I know that I only look up to you when I get hurt

And if that’s what it takes for me to remember you: Let it be.

Dear Lord, You’ve been patient for I sometimes communicate to you,

For I come home, tired. Physically but my spirit yells Pray!

For I am pre-occupied with my material priorities,

Dear God I want you to be my priority!

If I could handle school as a must,

THEN IT IS A SHAME

For I have forgotten you

Dear Lord,

Dear Lord, I want this to work

I want my body and my spirit

To search for you

Yet…

Lord God, for I am a girl and you know me

That I cannot express my feelings in words

Yet I know that my heart speaks for more

Listen to my heart that’s hurt